Today 19 years ago Freddie Mercury died... November 24, 1991.
I was never really big into Queen but now I really do like them and one of my favourite songs is “Those were the days of my life”. I think it’s amazing! But it usually makes me cry... in a good way though I guess really. So it’s ok.
Anyway... Thinking of Freddie and how sick he was, made me think of one day during my working time as a paramedic... Mostly I did transports, which are just non emergency transfers. Maybe taking a person from a nursing home to a hospital for tests or taking a patient from one hospital to another. It was very very busy work... 12 hour days at a minimum, 80 or 90 hours a week! Never a rest! UUgh! For the most part on the ambulance you don’t really get to know a person.... not enough time. When I worked in the Hospital it was really different. More time with patients = getting to know them. Sometimes though, knowing them too well to want to say goodbye when they have to go. But! I ramble... on the ambulance, time was in demand and I don’t really remember very many patients. With a few exceptions and today I thought of one of them...
It was just a normal transfer from a nursing home to a hospital for testing or something, I don’t know what. Anyway, it’s funny how we always think of a nursing home for old people, but of course it’s really a home for sick people of all ages. I think it was the fifth or sixth floor, in a room that was lived in, that's for sure! To a tiny little man that was frail and pale, but happy to see us. (Most are not!) As usual before we went into the patient my partner (who was a bit of an un-person but not to bad either i guess) and I would chose who would drive and who was in the back with the patient. I would be in the back with this one.... anyway. Like I said he was a small man and he looked very sick and not very old. He didn’t act sick or seem sick when I talked to him, but he was. He wasn’t sick, he was dying and he knew. That's not the reason I remembered him today though. I remember him because of one thing he said to me. Not a big thing... well it was, to him and, to me too. And I knew it even then at that moment....
After we packed his things... got him on the gurney, and then into the elevator (yippee it worked) down to the ground floor and instructions from grumpy over tired nurses. We were out the door... Usually the ambulance gets to park at the front door but this was a kinda alley and we had to park just down a little, not too far, but a little walk... I covered my patient and made sure he wasn’t cold, snug as a bug, it was a tiny bit cool, early morning cool, you know the kind... To my un-partner I said “hurry up its cold”, a quick little voice came out from under a mountain of blankets, pillows, and I.V. lines... “Don’t go fast! Please...Go slow, I don’t get out much anymore.”... We walked as slow as we could, and I will always remember that day.
Here’s a link to one of my favourite songs...
Ok first.... I put up a few new songs so.... go on then! go and check them out! NOW!!!!
Tomorrow.... The cameras are arriving! Finally! Apperantly they had some issue upon their arrival. (Guess they didn't have their passports or something) It is a long way from China and the customs stopped them, sent me a letter and want money to boot! Oh well! I'm just glad they are almost here! I have film on the way too! I'm like an expecting parent, pacing.... waiting!
More later..... Maybe!
It’s November the 19th... Friday... My nails are still holding up and I'm delighted with them. I thought they might catch in my hair but they don’t. Well not any more than anything else. My hair has a mind of its own and if it wants something it WILL have it with or without my cooperation. I think there may still be a hair brush I lost hiding somewhere in there!
Anyway... it is also, (new one for me) World Toilet Day. Yeah that's right! My Hubby found this info and passed it on to me today in my “morning report”! (I love this by the way) My morning report is gathered before I wake up (I love to sleep late!). My hubby wakes an hour or so ;~) before me so when I get up I get the “Morning report”! It’s great! I love it! Anything that made news, world or local. I get it first!! :~) Great service in this place! And today is in fact, World Toilet Day. I really do think it’s amazing that people in this day still don’t have the basics in life to survive! Something so very simple... When I was young I lived in a house with no running water in it, but I was lucky enough to still have access to clean fresh water.
On with the night....... !
It’s early now so soon we will have food... hummmm tonight its chicken... I feel like chicken tonight like chicken tonight! Chicken tonight! Ok sorry I had to! :~) Before that I might go browsing on eBay but I’m not sure yet. It’s great to surf eBay in a trance! Last time I bought 2 of the same thing! LOL! Then.... “I’m a celebrity get me out of here” is on! It’s by far the best one yet! We are hooked! And it’s so funny we went last week to see the Gorillaz and the guy that sings the song Dare is in it! Shaun.... and they are all too funny! We can’t stop laughing every show! We think they should leave them out there for more viewing! Only a little while! :~)
Up to bed with my Hubby! (I’m so lucky) and a great cuddle and, nudge nudge... wink wink! ;~) then I’ll drift off into a wonderful sleep with our sleep/trance soundtrack in the background! Not too bad! :~) Life is GREAT!
Yesterday I went in for ANOTHER MRI. Pretty soon I expect to start glowing I have had so many of them! Our microwave is on the blink so at least I can heat the food for awhile! Oh well at least it will save on the electric bill! Really it wasn’t too bad just the normal... thunk thunk... bang bang... sounds like this machine is going to fall apart, no not fall apart. Sounds more like its self destruction mode is very aggressive and angry! Maybe its parts are going to start flying like bullets! I’m always laying there talking myself down, trying not to freak out totally, and then the thing starts doing that! It would give any normal sane person a complex! And why do they give you those silly head phones???? They don’t fit and I don’t think there is a MRI on the planet that gets good reception! It’s like those old radio shows... there is more of a chance that Iwill make contact with aliens than actually hear a song! Just when I strain my ears enough to maybe hear something I am interrupted with a inaudible muffled voice.... I can only imagine the person on the other end, and other side of the window is making jokes at how funny I must look stiff as a board in my sarcophagus with my arms folded like king tut! On top of all this I’m counting the dots on the ceiling trying not to move! 51... that's how many rows down there are in the tiles on the ceiling... I have no clue how many across, about 200,000,000 I think, give or take a few! 51 is on odd number I thought but.... trust me on this one, I have counted enough to know! They put sandbags on my feet! What do they think I’m going to flood! At least it wasn’t so cold this time.... last time you could hang beef it was that cold, and try to be still when you have the shivers! Not easy!
I bought these fimo nail art things on eBay and today used them. Well I tried yesterday evening but it didn’t work out very well. Today on the other hand! LOL!!! Hand get it!! Nails LOL! Ok I’ll stop! Anyway I had the right equipment and bingo!
On the other hand! :~) I’m still waiting on the cameras to arrive... it’s a long way from china I guess! I don’t mind as long as they get here! I’m really excited now even more... we (my wonderful practically perfect hubby) and I went out on Sunday and took some film pics! Was brilliant! I’m so weird though.... digital is the thing now so I go for film! LOL! Not totally! I love the Sony but the others are great fun! And the ones on the way will be great! I found a site that tells about redscale film and how to do it yourself and I did! And the photos turned out amazing! I’m delighted with them and can’t wait to try it again! The Canon is excellent too! It’s really cool to have that camera again and to use it! I always wanted to get into funky film stuff when I was younger with the canon but couldn’t really afford and I had no idea what I was doing! But I have the internet now! So no question will go unanswered! Great!
Last thing, not on a hand at all.....
There was a meteor shower last night... I was all ready, camera in hand... looked up how to take good pics of night sky.... was really excited! Hubby has never seen a meteor shower and.... how cool would that be to see together! BUT! No dice.... well there could have been dice but there was too much rain to tell! Oh well next time!
That's it for now....
Here is a pic of my nails....
...and a couple of the redscale shots we got!
Night before last we went to see the Gorillaz! Wow what a night! They were fantastic! I took my camera with me and was hoping that I could get a few good shots of the quay on the way to the O2 but.... the winds were like a tornado, F5 over a bombing test site somewhere near the summit of Everest!! I don’t think I have ever seen winds so bad! I could hardly stand up... All I could think is....” poor skinny people, hope they don’t blow into the quay!” but I did manage to get a few really good shots! Hubby never complained once of the wind and the cold! (Which was better than me!)
Once inside the venue things started picking up a bit! ;~) By the time we made it to our seats (excellent by the way) it was most certainly time to sit down! (Or fall down!) We were in the front row of the balcony and I thought I was going to fall off the thing! My head was gone! The music started with Little Dragon and then to De La Soul.... they rocked! Little Dragon was really funky! I don’t know what she was on but my my do I wish I had some! :~) She was dancing on the stage with some sort of thing over her head! Like a light sheet or something! She could have been playing hide-n-seek for all I know! It was brilliant! De La Soul were a huge surprise! I didn’t know who they were and I didn’t think they were hip hop... But!.... They had me at hello! They were really really cool! I don’t really like hip hop but wow! They had it! The arena below was like a field of arms and bodies... moving like a caterpillar back and forth across the entire place! It was amazing to see! The lights and the sound, that jumps out from the speakers and proceeds to shoot right up the spine and straight to the heart.... pounding and almost over riding my own heart beat! WOW!!!! And that was only the beginning!
Gorillaz...It was like a circus, Damon the ring leader.... so many things to see and experience! There was so much going on on the stage! About 25 people at any given moment! This must be what it was like way back when.... you know, when people went to operas and theatre, before TV and internet. This was really a SHOW! Something very different and very special! I have never been to see a concert that touched on so many of the senses... visual, huge screen with amazing CGI and a story through the show, also in sync to perfection! Sound, the voices and the tempo of the music was that, that it alone could carry me away to some other world! Then, the feeling... the sound was so strong I could feel it! Like I said, right up the spine and to the heart and the pulsing of the sound turned to a physical rolling feeling all over the body! And last but by no means least.... my Hubby sitting next to me! Both of us in the same place just taking it all in! WOW! What a night!
After the show was over..... :~)
We walked back to the hotel. When I say we walked what I really mean is, we, and all the other stoned/drunk/whatever people piled out of the place, cringed at the fucking wind, then found the right general direction and began to march! Yeah MARCH! Hubby got that one well before I did and he was so right! Still don’t know just what we were all marching for but I’m sure it was a good cause! :~) I was just happy to be able to walk! LOL! (Truth!) I think if I had been able and the crowd was still going now, I would be too!! I guess it would be a good sociology study and that’s what I was thinking as we walked. (I am very intelligent!) That and “don’t fall, don’t fall!) ... Good to know sometimes we really are all in the same boat!
Over all.... superb and amazingly memorably night! (The concert wasn’t bad either!)
Today is my dad’s birthday. He is 67. It’s been well over two years this time since I talked to him last... his wife (yes that’s right, the devil!) is no longer in prison and again I am no longer in the for front of his world. Or even the for back for that matter! :~) My dad and I were close but the devil came between us. The devil and my dad that is. He could, if he really wanted to, anytime, call. But he doesn’t and that’s the way it is. We didn’t talk for about two years before and then got back in touch. He promised that never ever ever again would he be out of contact with me, then the devil got out of jail and that was that! We had agreed that we would take turns on the phone calls... and I have to admit it was a slight test too. My birthday was upcoming and also I had been really sick and was waiting to hear back from the doctor about an ultrasound on my tummy. Turned out to be a severally inflamed gallbladder had to be removed. My birthday was on a Friday and with my dad’s work schedule as a truck driver, Friday would be the perfect day to ring me. Would have only taken 5 dollars on one of those calling cards to ring me. He didn’t... and I never rang him back either.
I don’t have contact with either of my parents and to be honest that’s the way I prefer it.(may sound bad but it’s the truth) My grandparents were what I will always consider to be my parents. :~) And now I have everything in my life I could ever want or need with my Hubby! He is my everything... Husband, partner, lover, friend, brother, mother, father... I think you get the picture anyway! ;~) My cup runneth over!
Now off for a duet with hubby to The Sound of Music..... The lonely goatherd! Yipppppeeeeeeee
See ya later!
Oh what a night last night was!!!!!!!! Gorillaz at the O2! just fantastic! best show ever! still recovering! will post more in detail about the show when I am able! ;~) I have so much fun with Hubby! We always have great adventures! It's so amazing to have a person to share all things with! Good and bad... All things! And I am so very lucky to have the person I have to share with! Love you Hubby!
Little Dragon was there too... check it out!
Had a chance to snap a few pics. It was so windy! More film arrived when we were away, can't wait to get out with the film cameras!
Our internet has been down.... My my... it's amazing how lost I am without it! I can't seem to function at all. Hubby is the same! We are going to see the Gorillaz tomorrow night and I am doing some needed surfing at the moment so I don't know when I will post next.... Maybe later today but then who knows! LOL! that cat is just soooooo cute!
I am waiting for cameras to arrive in the post! Yeah, cameras! I know but they are just cheap little things... Also I’m waiting for film to get here as well... No matter what they would never get here the same day. :~) OH well!
Anyway... I am a binger! I know! It’s just me though. It’s not like an eating disorder or anything like that (poor people I feel for them). It’s more like when I do something I binge... really into a project for awhile then I drift on to another major thing... then to another! Lucky for me my Hubby doesn't seem to mind the house being taken over by many many unfinished projects and ALWAYS like to see me doing things I enjoy! Eventually I do get back around to projects I have started and it’s great to finish them but, I just usually binge and right now its cameras and film! That’s the flavour of the day for me! Oh and my finger nails! I love to do my nails! And I am waiting on a good UV nail dryer to get here! (EEE-BAY! EEE-BAY! EEE-BAY!) The other night I was shopping on... well, you know where! And sitting here at 4:20 again I accidentally bought the same thing twice!! LOL! What a dope I am! I had a MAJOR panic attack and thought I would be hunted down and tortured by the eBay people! But it turns out that when I sent one of them an email just saying I wasn’t going to buy the thing, they were really super nice about it! I told me I had made a really simple and embarrassing mistake! No one came after me for torture or anything... not even any nasty feedback! I was slightly disappointed; I had felt so much the rebel.... after the panic attack! In fact I’m on the blue star rating now on eBay. I don’t know what it means really, but, I think it must have something to do with how many lovely things people have said about me! ;~) Or.... could be something totally different! Like how much porn we have bought... it is a BLUE star! Could be some secret thing only eBay freaks know about! Who knows!
Oh yeah.... the cameras! Three of them... 22 Euro for all three, thought it was a good deal! (EEE-BAY!)
Here they are!
And the last one...
Also some really cool film too. This B&W that is AMAZING! I ran one roll through the little camera I put together and, even thought I fucked it up and only got 3 pics from the roll..... Oh Wow they were excellent! So I can’t wait to see how they will be in one of these!
Anyway that’s my binge for the day! Stay tuned for more neuroses!
I was chatting to 2 friends online today and Oliver came up... I didn’t go too much into his story with them only the quick over view. I thought I would tell Oliver’s story today. So you’re in for the long haul now!
My grandma was my best friend. Hubby is now my BFF! ;~) But then she was.... And a great friend she was too. She loved to go places, anywhere! Anytime! We had loads of fun and I loved her so very much! My grandpa and I were close too, but funny enough my life with my grandparents was split into... The first half was always me and my grandpa... The second was me and gran. I consider them my parents. Sadly my grandpa developed dementia and in the later years he was not completely himself. I feel very lucky that I had the time with my grandpa when I was young!
My grandparents both died 11 weeks apart. I was devastated to put it mildly. They were my life. The house they lived in was then mine, and so were so many responsibilities I was not ready for alone...
My grandpa died first then about 3 weeks after my grandma died I found Oliver, or I guess Oliver found me!
The car park of Wal-mart very very late at night... I got out of the car and saw a 2 people walking across the lot with a tiny little kitten bouncing behind them... Kittens always make me smile, and I said to the they sure had a cute kitten... It wasn’t theirs... Into the car Oliver went, smelling truly awful but very cute and cuddly. Happy and full of personality! Purrs and loving in abundance! Home we went...
My grandma had a cat, the only cat that she ever really liked and was hers, Tiger. He was an outdoor cat, and as I had several cats indoors already, before Oliver could come in he had to be tested for all the usual things. So he had a few nights outside to wait for the pearly gates to open! (Really just a brown door!) Tiger was a perfect friend for him. Never hissed once or even looked cross at Oliver. Brilliant! He was such a small kitten.
Oliver made it into the inner sanctuary and made his pitch for top cat! He NEVER left me... if I was on the couch, he was on me.... On the computer, in my lap! He would even escort me to the bathroom! And.... in the shower! If it was a bath, well then his perch was the side, dipping his paws in the water playing with bubbles! Flicking water here and there! By the end of the bath we would both be soaked!
In April I saw this big red scary lump thing in his mouth. To the vet and a biopsy. Cancer...
Two choices, radiation or surgery. Which will work is the question? A LONG drive to an oncologist in Dallas. Oliver was the perfect gentleman. Sitting on the end of the examination table looking with me and the Dr. at the x-rays. She said he looks like he knows what’s going on. Was she ever right! He was told before we went in to put on the charm, he did!
No radiation, won’t work. Surgery is the only option. Texas A&M has only 3 cases on record so the outcome is questionable. Will it work or not? Back at the vet she wants to send him to a surgeon. She said “don’t panic when you see the place just go in and see the Dr.” I’m glad she said don’t panic even thought it didn’t work! Did I ever panic! Wow! What a place... I mean PALACE! Oliver was told to put on the fancy charm for this one. This was our only chance.
Poor little Oliver... He was so good. The Dr. said he would do the surgery and went to his computer with the price list and started taking things away... “Won’t charge you for that”... “Won’t keep him that long, wont charge for that” ... on and on. From 1400 dollars to 600. An angel! They kept him and did the surgery that day. I sold my car to pay.
When I phoned that night to check on him, it was different staff from a 24hour emergency clinic.. all I had to say is” he’s the black and white one” and they knew exactly who HE was! “The charmer!” they said and “we are fighting for who gets to hold him and pet him next” I was so happy! I had been so worried what effect having half of his lower jaw removed would do to him?! Not one thing, if any, made him even better!
Oliver never left my side when I was alone, he really was my shadow. I think, NO, I know he was my grandmother, in some way either her or sent by her to take care of me. But I really think she just stayed awhile to keep me company.
Oliver is just a cat now... I don’t mean that in a bad way, it’s really very good! You see ever since I have been with my Hubby he’s just not the same cat! He’s just a regular cat now... Feed me! Pet me! Let me sleep! Clean my litter! He could care less about me! And would NEVER want to be that close to me anymore.
When I found my new best friend and my life she knew I would be just fine!
So.... that is Oliver...
Oh by the way.... Oliver is 11 years old now and still going like a kitten! He is an amazing cat and I'm very lucky he found me!
ok so you guess it! or did you???? I wonder!
new cat...... to the right! -------------------------------------------------------------->
i just think its too cute! havent picked a name yet though! hummmmmm .... no that wouldnt be a good name! lol! look at him over there sleeping! he will be looking for food next! or the litter box!
(When this was put up it was at the top of the page... Where the new cat is!)