Day 226 Project 365

Boxed in my body…

I know I mentioned this before but I have fibromyalgia. It’s a bad day for it today and I feel so boxed in my body I just want to scream! I'm sorry for the rant that follows but I guess it’s better out than in and it just has to come out or I think I will go totally crazy.

It’s like being in a constant war with myself and I am losing at the moment. I want out of my body and out of my skin! I want to feel like everyone else and be like everyone else! I want to feel a light touch and not feel pain and itching from it. I want the sheets of the bed to move over me and not feel it scraping across my body. I want to feel my hair on my face and not be tickled and itched by it! I want the cat to sniff me with his cute little pink nose and not be repulsed by how it feels. I want to cry and not have the tears tickle. I want to get goose bumps and not feel prickly pain from them. I want clothes to brush my skin and not feel it! I want my doctor to care enough to actually try to do something! I just want to feel normal…

Do I want too much?

Skin… the largest organ of the body.

BLAH! sorry for all the bitching….