Depressed and hate it
I don’t know what’s wrong with me today. I have NO get up and go. I feel so bad all I can do is sit here and cry… I don’t even know what I'm crying about, I hate it! I have been like a dead dog on the sofa all day. I feel so stressed out and like I can do nothing the right way… everything I do seems to go wrong. I feel the weight of the world is on me I don’t know why… and I feel like I'm going to explode. I was always so optimistic and positive… but it feels like I have lost that for some reason. I want it back! I don’t want to feel this way. I feel alone.
I had a major panic/anxiety attack last night… took 2 valium and they didn’t really help much. I took a hot shower for 30 minutes to try and relax but only cried the whole time instead. I tossed and turned in bed and didn’t get to sleep till about 7am.
I'm happy! I'm not unhappy… I have everything I want and need so I just don’t get what it is?
I don’t know what to do… What’s wrong with me? Am I going crazy? How can I be happy and still cry?
I'm not looking for sympathy this is just my day… day 261 is shit.
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